Bittersweet



This weekend the sun shone long and warm. We breakfasted outdoors, we lunched under the midday sun and dined alfresco as the heat of the day radiated from the stones beneath our feet.

We read books.




Got dirty feet.




Paddled a little to wash off the dirt.



Sipped flouncy drinks.



Even joined the dogs in the shade, from time to time.



Wonderful, summer days. We also waved goodbye to Dylan who is off on a school trip. Five whole nights. And how my heart aches and my throat feels tight. His room lies still and empty, his voice and smile are missing. I know he will come back that little bit older and that little bit less in need of me. Mothering doesn't get any easier with the passing years.

Comments

Gina said…
It doesn't get any easier the older they get... seeing my twenty year old go off travelling to India last month was awful. His room is so empty!
kim said…
Such a sweet post. What a perfectly lovely way to spend the days of Summer. I'm sure that Dylan will come back even more grateful for a mother like you.
dottycookie said…
One night nearly did for me so I send huge hugs and sympathy for you for a five night absence! He will have a whale of a time, I'm sure, but it's still so hard to let them go ...
A Country Girl said…
I know that feeling when they go off for a few nights!
Sounds like you had an idyllic weekend.
cathleen said…
What sweet photos of a typical summer day. I'm really sorry you're feeling out of sorts about your little guy. You are a wonderful Mommy!
TheMadHouse said…
Five nights, well the though of that makes me feel physically sick. I do worry how I am going to cope when they get bigger. Today is the boys first day back at school after a long weekend a nd yes I am pineing again. I am so looking forward to the holidays
rachel said…
You're right, it doesn't, but for different reasons once they become real grown ups. But they always need their mothers, that's for sure.....

I'm watching a neighbour's 3-month-old baby grow and change daily; a reminder of how fleeting babyhood is, and how precious.
you can say that again! (that mothering doesn't get any easier) wow. i think it gets so much harder with each passing year.
love your relaxing weekend. and your backyard. oh, how i just need to lie on a quilt in the backyard. always a good thing!
xx
alice c said…
Oh...they need to learn to go away so that they can learn to come home...trust me.
Ali said…
The flouncy drinks will lure him back I'm sure!
It's strange when there's one offspring fewer in the house isn't it? Mark stayed at a friend's on Saturday night and when we picked him up, he said 'The best thing about being away is everyone being so happy to see me when I come back'.
Five days is a long while though. But I'm sure he's having a ball.
Krawuggl said…
I completely understand your worries. But although this trip will be very exiting and adventurous for Dylan, I am sure that he will also be glad to be home again, his own bed, his own room, with his family around him and it´s safety, and a kiss and a hug from mummy to welcoming him back. And when he finally told you everything about his trip I am also sure that you will be very proud of having helped him to become such a lovely and self-reliant boy.
Your day in the garden sounds wonderful, I so much would love to come for an hour, too, enjoy sitting on the grass, have a little shade and above all a good sip of those pretty special drinks, they look marvellous!
Cybèle said…
It doesn't get any easier no, but it changes. And it will be great fun to see how he's changed when he comes hoome. I. gained so much confidence from that first trip away (also 5 nights), it was a big step for all of us but she benefited from that confidence for the whole next year.
But yes, it is very quiet and although it is fun to have lots of time for the child that stays at home, you always have that empty feeling in your stomach.

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