Hopelessly helpless


I have been incredibly busy these last few weeks, there have been
highs and lows, at times I feel I can conquer all mountains, I am superwoman and at other times I feel like lying down on the ground in a crumpled heap, defeated and deflated.



Such is life.


The highs are all good, work related things. I have been busy with orders, new designs and booking craft fairs, I have felt strong and positive, a sense of achievement.

The lows are all impossibly beyond my control, there are family and legal matters that require attention, things that must follow a course, that are taking time and energy but resolution of one sort or another is in the near horizon at last.



And then the car wouldn't start. I gazed into the depths of the engine and had my own little emotional breakdown, a feeling that the end of the world was nigh, I wept for so much more than a non-starting car.



But I came in, breathed deeply, thanked heaven for telephones and helpful friends to take over the school run. I took out my camera and for a few minutes I focused on the little things, letting the anxieties blur into the background, focusing on tiny piles of calm.

Comments

rachel said…
Chin up. Everything passes.

Buy armloads of daffodils and put them all over the house. Instant lift to the spirits.

Hope the serious stuff gets resolved soon. x
Arianwen said…
My life is like that at the moment too. Somedays I am invincible but then I think about interviews and a proper teaching job and my tummy turns to jelly!
dottycookie said…
You're not alone. When I spilled my dinner all down my front after FINALLY sitting down, I just about lost it.

Glad work is going well, and I hope all the serious stuff sorts iteself out very soon.
Your tiny piles of calm have brought me peace. Thank you. Take care, Denise
Oh dear I do hope there is some sun on the horizon for you.
Jo x
kim said…
Well, those buttons are most certainly zenlike. Is it just the time of year? Because I know how you feel. I watched a movie called Hachi and cried my eyes out. It felt good. Hope your day improves...
Ali said…
Even Superwoman values her small, calm spaces I'm sure. Breathe.
Monica said…
I could have written this post. All of it. Except my car is ok, and I lost it when I realised that no matter the amount of washing I did one of the boys needs something that is still dirty... tomorrow... (it was hidden under his bed).

Sometimes it's good to lose it. And take pictures of buttons.
Charity said…
Hang in there, Rebecca. I'm glad things are looking up in the work dept. - the rest will follow in time.
Amaranthine said…
Sorry to hear that things are not so sunny just now. I hope they will be sorted soon but in the meantime do beg favours from friends so you can pause for thought once in a while.
Totally been there and done that, too.

We cry for more than the crisis of the moment, sometimes, don't we?
Hope things will get better soon. A good cry is good for the soul.
Linda said…
I hope things get easier soon. Well done for keeping positive with the craft fair things. Please take a picture of the pile of things you have made when you are done, would love to see them all!
frayedattheedge said…
Sometimes it can be the silliest of things that is that final straw, so I think you are allowed to get upset about the car! Hope you get everything sorted soon - in the meantime I prescribe cake!
Bethany Hissong said…
Today I was feeling (am feeling) like this... for other reasons... mean people. I read your post and it made me feel a bit better-- that someone else's heart is heavy and I think I can get through it. I like your piles.
nicole said…
Sorry to hear about the tough times. Hopefully the highs will overtake them. Have a sweet, calm weekend!
Anonymous said…
Thanks for sharing - relate to your feelings - a chocolate moment seeing me through - hope you have a good weekend

Barb
alice c said…
I suspect that you wrote this post for me. And even if you didn't, it feels as though you did. Thank you.
Anonymous said…
Oh for gods sake get a grip!
raining sheep said…
Oh goodness, sounds like life is a bit overwhelming for you right now. I absolutely bond about the car thing - if my car makes the slightest strange sound, my heart goes straight into my throat. Breathe!
I have made many visits to your blog and never left a comment.... Today just wanted to say .... Sorry for the hard days. I loved that you came in and focused on small little buttons... The small things in life can bring back a smile. Your blog is lovely and watching your life through this blog is a bright spot in my day. Keep up the good work.
Jane said…
Rebbeca-I hope things are going a bit better. We've all been there (are there) and know how you are feeling. Keep taking those awesome photos...they are wonderful.
silverpebble said…
Those little piles of buttons look very therapeutic. I do hope they helped a little. It sounds like a bad day. Hope the days since have been better.
skybluepinkish said…
I got knocked off my perch last week by something I never expected, not in a million years. I've found the little ups, however tiny, are starting to make a tiny but growing dent in the very big hole. So keep collecting the ups :)

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